I have had it…
This stress that has been making my eye twitch for 6 days, has finally made me burst. I have some things I need to get out. And of course, what better place than here.
First of all, I wish people would cut me some slack about my past. I am really getting tired of people bringing up or making jokes about the fact that I “used to be gay”. For the record, I never slept with anyone, other than my wife. I was teased since 1st grade until high school about being gay. It got so bad, that I started to actually believe it.
Yes, I dressed in drag like 3 times, two were for a costume party and one was a dare to go with my roomate and her sister to the Mall of America and they were in freakish outfits and wigs, while I was in plain jeans and a nice shirt. Whoop de doo, that really doesn’t qualify me as a drag queen. Sorry.
I am also fed up with a lot of shit that Amy and I seemed to just accept from people, cause heaven forbid we should “create waves”. Well I am tired of it. I am tired of people judging us and taking us for granted and not even GIVING US A FUCKING THANK YOU!
I am tired of people thinking were fat, because we eat to much or we eat too many sweet. When in truth they don’t know that we eat very healthy and struggle everyday with our weight and that it is a very hard thing to deal with and that we don’t keep sweets in the house.
Those people don’t live with me, so it pisses me off that they go and tell their family that we’re fat cause we eat to much. It’s heart breaking to have someone you love, come up to you and tell you to your face that your fat.
I am tired of people walking all over Amy demanding that she do things for them (even go as far as making her re-arrange her whole schedule to accommodate them) just because she is a stay at home mom.
They seem to think she doesn’t do anything all day. She is the most busiest person I know. Without her, this family wouldn’t be able to function.
She cleans, get the groceries, pays the bills, helps me balance the books–budgets to finances (not only us but my sister too), takes the kids to all their activities, does tap classes, goes to a church group, volunteers for girls scouts…
She doesn’t have time to help you with every little problem you have and she will not be your go-between, just because you don’t want to talk to someone. Grow up and deal with your own shit.
I am tired of people thinking were made of money, just because we know how to budget and get a few nice things here and there.
I am tired of teenagers and children alike; not getting the love, attention and supervision they deserve and fear for how that is going to effect their lives as they grow older. It just seems that no one is thinking about their future and what the present can do to alter that.
I can’t believe I just typed all that. I should delete it and not even post it, but part of me is tired of keeping my mouth shut and not expressing myself to someone. How can change come about it someone doesn’t stand up and say something.