So I have been thinking a lot lately about a great many things.
I really want to turn my life around. I have a great life already, but I know that I can make it better in a few key areas.
First, my weight. I have been over-weight since about 9 or 10 years old. Not only do I want to eat healthier and get more exercise in my day, and be there for my family for years to come…but frankly, I want to know what I look like skinny. I have only ever known a fat me. (That and I would really like to be able to walk into any shop and buy off the rack. I love shopping for clothes.) My dream would to also be more buff…but that may be a whole other goal AFTER I get skinny.
The tricky part is figuring out what exactly I should be doing. I would love to have a personal trainer…but finding someone who fits into my budget (cheap) is hard…I also cannot afford a gym membership atop of that…so things I can do at home (I have a treadmill and some other stuff that I can use) is what I really need. I need someone to tell me that on this day, I need to do this and this and this…and even perhaps saying, on this day, eat this, this and this. Whats also hard is figuring it out for my schedule…when is the best time for me to work out? When I get home from work? When I wake up? Before I go to work? What time will maximize my exercise burnage…I just need help…so that will be a tough one to work on…but I am determined.
Second, I really need to market the hell out of my freelance business. I would like to be my own boss, working from home and just creating all day long. I love my current job and third shift is working out well for my family…but its not healthy…I am missing a lot of sleep and I am tired all the time, and frankly…I would like to see my wife more. This whole “time-share” with the bed has got to stop. We both have a hard to falling asleep without the other next to us. This also brings me to #3.
Third, I need to CREATE more. I have recently re-taken up crocheting (and hopefully knitting soon, with some classes) and I have really enjoyed figuring out patterns and adapting them and CREATING something. But not just that, I need to take out more time for me to paint, sketch, take photos and DESIGN!
I am really not happy unless I am creating something. Whether its any of the things above, I just need to do it…otherwise I am going to loose that skill.
Fourth, I need to make sure that I keep in face-to-face contact with my friends. I cannot be a recluse and stay shut up in my home. I am very envious of the very frequent “dates” my wife has with her best friend. I need that…I need to go out and DO things with my friends…keep those relationships going….also, I miss when I had my weekly Karaoke nights…I looked forward all work week to having my “Friday Night Karaoke!”… I miss those and the fun I would have and all the “de-stressing”…this leads to number five…
Fifth, I need to step back from World of Warcraft a little more (well, my computer in general..I do have some great friendships online that I don’t want to loose and my real life friends are on there too and some weeks its the only way we can get together to connect…online)….but…
I already rarely play it because I am so busy…but I need to remove myself from my computer…From creating so much on the computer, to then playing on the computer, then going to work on the computer…I already spend way too much time there…This is why I took up crocheting. I can sit with my family, and spend time with them watching a movie or talking, while I crochet (I already cannot just sit and watch a movie with them…I need to do something, otherwise I fall asleep or feel like I am wasting time just watching a movie–not wasting time with them, mind you).
So, those are my goals. I am praying I can make them happen.
Recently I discovered a new song by RuPaul (not entirely new, I have had the album for a year or so…but I finally listened to this one track.)
It’s called. “Hit the Floor (Matt Moss’ Vidon Remix)” from her “Drag Race” album (Listen Here)…I love the lyrics and the energy it has…I think this is going to be my anthem for this year. Something to keep me going.
There is a few lyrics that really “hit me”, but the ones that I love the most are (I hope I have them right…I can’t find them online–bold ones are my favorite):
You Wanna Win, You gotta fight,
Roll Up Your Sleeves and Take a Bite,
You better let them know
Hit. the. Floor.
Runnin’, Arrows glancin’
Everlastin’, Like a Hurricane…
Hit. the. Floor.
Runnin like your life depended
on it, use it,
before you lose it darlin’
This is no race, you better run,
This is your time, spit out your gum
You better let them know
It’s your own personal reprieve
Your on the road of victory
Get ready set and go Go GO
(I highly recommend checking out this great dance song…some great motivational energy going on here. Check out Let’s Turn the Light…another really good one..)
So…wish me the best!