I have some pictures of my cruise on my desktop at work and I was looking at one tonight, one of my favorites.
Its a photo I took from the starboard side of the ship, on deck 5, promenade, right outside of the rotunda lounge while we were hanging out, waiting for dinner to start and trying to catch the sunset.
I am sitting on a bench, and Amy is at the railing looking over the side at the water. She just couldn’t get over how blue the water was.
The sun is not directly above us, but it hasn’t set yet and you can see the blue sky and the blue water and the light from the sun off the horizon.
Looking at this photo made me start to recollect about the trip and I cam to a realization.
While we had a long trip (a few days in Miami, the cruise and a few days in Miami afterwards), I took it for granted.
It seemed at the time like the vacation was a nice long one, but looking back, it was really short. I took for granted things on the cruise and off shore.
For instance, we never did experience the Point After Disco Lounge, the Star Bar, the Piano lounge/bar, the casino…nor did we see all the shows, or try all the different activities. “We always had tomorrow” (Oh the voice of procrastination, I know thee well)
I slept in our room a lot (couple hours each day), I’m sure my accident the weekend before had something to do with that, but still.
And we really didn’t explore Key West or Cozumel very much. We never made it to an actual beach (not in Miami either) nor swam in the ocean, something Amy and I really, really wanted to do…
Looking at this photo makes me want to go back, or try another cruise. I feel a longing to be on that water again, feel the slight sway back and forth, and yes, having food and drinks 24/7.
But even though I missed all that. You know what was probably my favorite part about the whole trip. The moment I cherish the most and really want to go back and do again?
Amy and I laying out on the SPA deck while the whole ship was still enjoying Key West, with no one else really around us, as near the front of the ship as we could get, just relaxing together and talking…and not talking. Dozing a little, a drink near us. Even when it started to sprinkle, we just lounged their together and just enjoyed each others company.
That is what I loved the most.
We were able to do that a few more times (on a fake beach in Cozumel, no, not a real beach, just a walled off section and high up from actual water in the port area) and later that same night while the ship was in Cozumel port waiting for a band to start the fiesta.
Those moments together, just her and I, no other interruptions. Sometimes talking, sometimes just saying nothing at all.
I want more moments like that. I want to find opportunities to create those moments here.
I love you kitten, if your reading this, thank you for being there with me. Like the song says, “You Say it Best, When you say nothing at all”
Ya know, looking at what I just wrote, I realized why those moments are so special to me. It reminds me of Amy and I, when we first met, those first few years. Every night when we went to bed, we would just lay there and talk. Recap our day, plan for the week, or just lay there together and listen to each other breathe. With my schedule now, we don’t get to do that anymore. I feel our bedroom is like a timeshare…I come home and basically kick her out of bed… Perhaps that is what I miss the most, and why those moments on the cruise meant so much to me. It reminded me of our younger days and how we had so much time for each other and now, well, school, work, kids, obligations seem to eat all that time together up… Maybe its time to take stock of our lives…