Well… it’s been awhile. I am so bored right now. Waiting for art files so I can do some work.
My life has been very stressful.
I don’t even know where to begin. I guess not working as much as I would like is stressful, then add having another baby with no health insurance, would add to that. Add to that a parent who complains about money (with a small degree of being right) doesn’t help any.
My birthday is coming up, but with me being so stressed, I don’t know how I am going to enjoy it. I hate doing the finances, but Amy doesn’t like to do them either, and someone has to. I hate that we have no money. I want to pay of my card, car, get a bigger home that is on land I own, get a new washer and dryer, a new fridge, stove and entertainment center. A nice sectional would be nice too.
I want to start up college funds for the kids and retirement funds for Amy and I, but without money, that is impossible to do. I feel like I am in this sinking hole and I just can’t out.
Food would be nice too. I can’t remember the last time our fridge and cupboards were stocked with food. It always seems there is nothing to eat. And since Amy has been feeling sick and not feeling like cooking dinner, her usual knack of making something out of nothing, isn’t happening.
I am so depressed all the time. I have learned how to keep up a happy appearance, but even Amy can see through that. I love how she assure me everything will be alright, but lately that hasn’t helped.
I just need a miracle. or a job.