On my way home from work today I realized something.
While I am physically recovering from my my first major car accident; emotionally, I don’t think I am.
Driving is completely different for me now.
At every single intersection, even if I am the only car there, I feel anxiety. Every single intersection.
I have that feeling of, “will I get hit again?”
“Will a car come out of nowhere and hit me?”
As I drive through (especially turning through) an intersection, I can almost relive the accident: the suddenness, the impact, the car being turned 180 degrees, the smell of the airbags…and then as I am out of the intersection, the feeling is gone.
I feel this way through every single intersection.
Maybe it sounds strange, but its what I feel.
That accident shook me to the core.